Grief and The Monastic Life

Many things can happen over the course of our lives that can cause us grief. The loss of a loved one, the end of a romantic relationship, or drastic changes in our lives are all things that likely have grief attached to them.

So how does the modern day monastic process grief in a way that is conducive to one’s mental health, as well as being able to move beyond grief to a place of joy?

Let’s start with the most basic element of a monastic life, prayer. A solid prayer practice is the cornerstone of any monastic observance. If we are rooted in the practice of prayer, we have a stable foundation which allows us to explore and process our emotions while simultaneously turning them over to our higher power for healing. 

Another practice which can help a monastic move through grief is meditation. The quieting of our scattered minds allows us to observe and identify muddled feelings and emotions, and to name the things that may be burued beneath anger, sadness and confusion.

One practice that I can not stress enough for dealing with grief is forgiveness. A monastic ought to readily work toward forgiveness whenever possible. Harboring resentments only serves to hold us back from the work of learning to live in love; it can also make us extremely bitter and cause divisive behaviors to take root in our lives. Working toward forgiveness means that we choose to be merciful so that we can know peace.

Finally, honesty is key when taking on the process of moving through grief. Being honest with ourselves is good form, but it also allows us to see things as they are and not as we want them to be. Honesty with others allows us to reach out for help when it is needed, and shows that we are worthy of trust and honesty from others. 

When these things are combined as part of one’s daily monastic practice, the way through change and grief can become plainly clear. It is my hope that each of you would consider these practices as essential to your monastic expression not simply because they make for a good roadmap through difficult emotions, but because they point the way to love, which the world needs more of.

Nature and Soul Care

For me, there is something healing about nature. I went camping recently for the first time in many years and I came back a new person.

Being quiet and enjoying the sounds of nature, I could hear more clearly the things that my soul was crying out for. I spent time bonding with my dog, swimming in a hot spring, relaxing by the fire and sleeping under the stars (in my tent). All of these things were healing for me, and I am grateful for the blessings that nature has bestowed upon me.

The natural beauty of the woods is also healing for me. The wild animals going about their business, picking wild huckleberries, enjoying an afternoon nap and staying up into the night to visit with family around the fire all made room for me to process the feelings that I am experiencing, and allowed me to move through some of them with ease.

Nature also allowed me to see and love myself as I am. The sense of peace that can be found in the wilderness is amazing. I highly recommend taking some time out to experience the blessings of nature and the peace that it’s quietness brings.

Humility and Self Confidence

There is a big difference between humility and putting oneself down. Humility asks us to recognize that we are reliant on one another and on our higher power for our social and spiritual wellbeing. It also asks us to view ourselves as stewards of the world around us as well as the people in our lives.

We must take great care not to confuse humility and feelings of worthlessness or being less than another; we are all worthy of dignity, love and respect. This is not haughtiness, rather it is a healthy form of self confidence.

Humility requires gratitude and honest self examination. Knowing in one’s heart that each of us are servants and stewards of the world around us and the people in our lives while maintaining healthy boundaries and self-confidence can be tricky. It may help to remember that each one of us are the beloved children of our Creator and recognizing our talents without being grandiose or boastful are great ways to both have healthy humility and healthy self-confidence.

It is my belief that in order for healthy humility to flourish, each of us must work to cultivate charity, love, self-examination and self-acceptance. All of these things pave the way for a humility that is neither self-depreciating or attention seeking. Both of these things represent false humility and must be diligently guarded against.

In closing I would ask each of you to examine honestly your relationship with humility. There is always room for improvement in this department and by having a healthy kind of humility, we improve the wold around us.

Gratitude and Joy

One of the core practices of any monastic life is that of gratitude. The regular practice of taking inventory of and recognizing all that we have to be grateful for is one of the direct causes of a deep and abiding joy in our lives.

The monastic practice of gratitude is not just about giving thanks for all that is going right in the life of the monastic. Things such as change, emotion and life experience are all causes for the monastic to give thanks, but these are not always positive things. Change can be painful, emotions can be uncomfortable and life experiences that shape who we are can be troublesome. Giving thanks for both good and happy things as well as difficult things is a discipline that takes time to master, just as any monastic discipline takes time to accomplish effectively.

On the front page of the OES website is a video from TED concerning joy and gratitude. The monk, David Steindl-Rast lists a few things that mark what we ought to be grateful for, and the thing that sticks out for me is that anything that I didn't earn is something I ought to be grateful for (this covers a great many things in my life).

So, dear readers, I encourage you to take stock of all the things in your life that you have to be grateful for. Take time out of your day to inventory and then give thanks for what you believe is a gift, even for menial things like the meals you eat. You may find that over time, you are more joyful by default.

If you'd like to watch the video about joy and gratitude, it can be found under our "Featured Faith Talks" section on the homepage at http://eremiticservants.org

The Only Constants

To the untrained eye, the monastic life seems full of constant, unchanging things. The cycle of "pray, eat, work" is a visible anchor to every monastic as is one’s unchanging day to day wear, if one chooses to wear the monastic habit.

But, if you were to metaphorically peel back the outer layers as if you were peeling an onion, the only real constants in a sincerely lived monastic life are God and change.

Each of us is called daily, through our prayer and work, to change and to grow both in spirit and in character, into the person that our Creator intended us to be. This often means venturing outside of our comfort zones into new and uncharted territory, to a place where vulnerability and uncertainty reign supreme.
Even as I write this, change is in full force in my life. I’m in the process of moving from the place that has served as my hermitage for over three years, to a place I am familiar with but do not consider my home. My long term relationship is taking its dying breaths and I will be taking on a vow that I have not professed since 2006 - the vow of celibacy.

I’m inclined to think that my Creator has life lessons in store for me. That despite my best efforts to resist growing in the direction I am going, the Spirit has found a way, yet again, to turn things on their head and to instruct my heart in things yet unlearned.

I fully intend to approach this new phase of my life with curiosity and open-mindedness, in hopes that these attitudes will make the lessons I am due to learn as painless as possible.